I've been trying to keep mum. I've been trying not to jinx things because even though I like to believe I'm not superstitious, I still feel like I could screw things up at any moment by a misplaced word. I've been trying not to get my hopes up too high in case it doesn't work out. But the truth is that I am so excited about my possible new job, so excited about the room and the schedule and the area and everything it will mean to me to finally be out of debt. I get nervous sometimes, but mostly I am just so happy that I am going for this. If there's one thing I'd like to tell you out of all of this is how amazing it is when you chase your dreams, how exciting it looks from here, and please try it someday as soon as possible.
I know that it will be hard and stressful sometimes; life is. But I also know that I would be a fool to waste the opportunity by getting sidetracked by negative thoughts.
I am going to lots of museums. I am going to ride the train to everywhere. I am going to make enough money that I won't question every single expenditure. Maybe one day I'll mail off a big check to my favorite charity and then I'll celebrate by buying myself an iced grande hazelnut percent no whip mocha and not feeling anything other than anticipation for a very good treat.
I am going to eat chocolate babka. I am going to try the cupcakes at Magnolia Bakery. I am going to sit in a coffee shop and read.
I am going to love it.
2006-04-21 - 3:20 p.m.
